Find your way out if you feel assed. That is it.

Monday, October 16, 2006

I seriously think that this semester is so screwed up. It's only week 4 and im getting sick of everything.

But anyway, looking at the modules, it seems that this semester might be a good enough for me to buck my gpa up. Plenty plenty of half-language modules and paper work... Apparently, im not that awesome in my languages, but strangely enough, language modules are the only ones that seem a little more interesting to hit on.

Some people might have the urge to slap me but wtf, i still wanna say, im very disappointed that i've got a B+ for Media Law last sem. I might even be happier if i've gotten a B instead. But B+!!! Bloody hell why is there a + there? WHY??? Do you know how dampening it is to see a B+ in your slip?!

It's like you know you can ace it, but bloody no, you're a B+. B plus + but never an A. You're nearer to a B and further from an A.

Fine lah, just trash-talking..

Yea.. i know you might think that a B+ is good grade, indeed it is. I just feel damn anal that i haven't seen any As in my slip so far. Quite discouraging... T____T Okay, i just wanna rant a little about it. (somemore media law 2 credits only...)

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I don't know it's me or what, but it's seems that everytime i've gotten a little improvement or so, i'll tend to stress myself until i break. Cos i'll always think that if i steer head on towards the limits, i'll at least fall back somewhere safety zone. Quite gay isn't it? Actually i feel quite bad for stressing my group people so much, but it's becos im afraid that i might not meet my own expectations. It's like, you know you have the capability to do something, but in the middle you might want to slack abit.. take things easy.. slack abit more.. then in the end it's too late to make any amendments.

I don't mean to pressurize them either, i just want to make sure that things will go right. Cos there're bound to be nitty gritties that nobody notice, but in the end, they make a big dung out of your assignment. Veerry siaaan one knoooooow????!!?!?!

I'm very surprised at my own change as well. I used to be a very happy person. I mean seriously, i worry about nothing at all. Ahh fine, not exactly nothing, but you get the idea. But now i'll get temperamental frequently, i became so demanding with myself, with my people. It's a disgusting attitude i know, so i'll try not to show it. But the more i try to hide it, the more it eats me up. I seriously loathe this.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Fuck assignments. They make people go gay.

ps: im like talking to myself in my blog.. eeyer..

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